Life is hard,
cruel.
Scars never stop aching.
But a point in time comes
where survival hardens into something dangerous —
something that gets back up-bleeding,
smoke in its lungs,
determined to set fire
to anything that tries to bury it again.
-Mandy Ricks
People called her difficult
without ever knowing what she had survived.They saw sharp edges,
but not the hidden shaking,
the resentment burning low in her chest.She learned to hide it all behind polite smiles
and half-finished replies.There were nights she stayed alive out of nothing but spite.
Days she moved through ordinary conversations
while entire sections of her were quietly collapsing behind the walls.Still,
she kept something alive in herself.Not hope.
Not happiness.Just a small stubborn refusal
to become as cold as the people who hurt her.And honestly,
that probably saved her life.-Mandy Ricks
Change never arrives gently.
It carves through you slowly
until one day
it catches you
mid-sentence, mid-cigarette, mid-grief—and you realize
the person staring back
no longer looks easy to destroy.—
-Mandy Ricks
Cars moved.
Coffee steamed behind the glass.
Somewhere, someone laughed too loudly.
The old man kept walking toward the shop,
carrying all his winters at once.-Mandy Ricks
In a square of sand beneath a watching sky,
two boys kneel while kingdoms cry.
Leo shapes with open hands, low, wide walls that welcome lands.
His gates unlatched, his edges kind—no need to guard what’s shared in mind.
Don cuts hard with heel and fist, a higher throne, a tighter grip.
His towers climb on narrowed ground, each grain a thing to stake and crown.
They do not speak. They do not meet.
Their borders press beneath their feet.
A restless wind that takes no side moves through their work, but passes by.
Leo mends the broken, and smiles as sand heals the fray.
Don strikes at every chance, even if it won’t give way.
And still they build, as children do—one builds for many, one for few.
-Mandy Ricks
Sometimes the day doesn’t arrive all at once.
It slips in quietly—through the edge of a curtain, the hum of something ordinary, the pause between thoughts.
I used to think I had to meet the day with intention, with purpose, with something to prove.
Now I’m learning to just notice it instead.
The way light rests on a surface.
The way a moment passes without asking anything from me.
Maybe that’s enough.
Maybe some days aren’t meant to be built or fixed or understood.
Maybe they’re just meant to be witnessed.
-Mandy Ricks
Some take risks without hesitation, others don’t dare.
It’s cold enough, my legs ache again. Maybe I just can’t stand it today.
This morning I sang along to American Pie. That counted for something.
Dancing in the gym sounds fine to me, though I haven’t decided yet.
When it’s the end, does it still count if the fat lady took Ozempic and isn’t fat anymore?
Listening counts. Being heard matters.
-Mandy Ricks
It’s that time of year again —
when we honour a small enduring light, and a higher guiding one.
We celebrate our togetherness,
and pray for our uniqueness.
We talk of fun times past,
and drink to forget the hard times now.
But above all, remember this —
no matter what the monster says,
good people are still good,
and there are no returns on tickets to hell.
-Mandy Ricks
“Don’t look at me”,
she lowered her head.
Maybe more makeup would cover her shame.
She barely supposed to walk,
Her drummer is gone.
For sure she will wander,
head down,
most steps mistrodden,
until she can accept herself.
-Mandy Ricks
I hope today brings you one step closer to where you want to be and one step farther than where the monsters live. -Mandy Ricks
I was having a chat with ChatGPT about a quote by Albert Einstein on the need to be intelligent to accept change. But we both agreed that it doesn’t really take intelligence to accept change sometimes it just takes guts; raw, messy, heart wrenching guts. And getting back up, always getting back up.
So, here is our quote on change and intelligence.
🌿 “Intelligence isn’t loving change — it’s finding your footing when change finds you.”
-Mandy Ricks and my friend @ ChatGPT
Is it possible that the best thing about our relationship was the late night parking? Where shadows of something our hearts called love collided with vinyl seated orgasms. Or was it just easier to ignore the stop signs while we forged our fantasies. -Mandy Ricks
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