Mandy Ricks

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  • Fear is not always right

    Time arrives uninvited,
    bringing fear and too many questions.
    It feels as if the love in your heart is cracking, splintering.

    But before you crumble,
    look up one more time.

    There are still things reaching for you:
    hope, strength, small impossible moments
    that refuse to die quietly.

    Grab onto them.
    Clutch them like a lifeline.

    Because fear is loud,
    but it is not always right.

    And sometimes love carries us
    through one more night
    than we thought we could survive.

    -Mandy Ricks

    This poem is for my daughter Samantha and her precious cat Pebbles. She has had Pebbles for sixteen years, since she was a child, and sadly today he is very sick.

    We’re all hoping for the best and clutching onto all the love and hope we can.

    -Mandy

  • Get back up

    Life is hard,
    cruel.
    Scars never stop aching.
    But a point in time comes
    where survival hardens into something dangerous —
    something that gets back up-bleeding,
    smoke in its lungs,
    determined to set fire
    to anything that tries to bury it again.

    -Mandy Ricks

  • Difficult

    People called her difficult
    without ever knowing what she had survived.

    They saw sharp edges,
    but not the hidden shaking,
    the resentment burning low in her chest.

    She learned to hide it all behind polite smiles
    and half-finished replies.

    There were nights she stayed alive out of nothing but spite.

    Days she moved through ordinary conversations
    while entire sections of her were quietly collapsing behind the walls.

    Still,
    she kept something alive in herself.

    Not hope.
    Not happiness.

    Just a small stubborn refusal
    to become as cold as the people who hurt her.

    And honestly,
    that probably saved her life.

    -Mandy Ricks

  • The last line

    The worst things are rarely the loudest.
    They settle quietly,
    letting the last line sit there like a bruise.

    -Mandy Ricks

  • Change

    Change never arrives gently.

    It carves through you slowly
    until one day
    it catches you
    mid-sentence, mid-cigarette, mid-grief—

    and you realize
    the person staring back
    no longer looks easy to destroy.

    —

    -Mandy Ricks

  • Winters

    Cars moved.
    Coffee steamed behind the glass.
    Somewhere, someone laughed too loudly.
    The old man kept walking toward the shop,
    carrying all his winters at once.

    -Mandy Ricks

  • The sandbox

    In a square of sand beneath a watching sky,

    two boys kneel while kingdoms cry.

    Leo shapes with open hands, low, wide walls that welcome lands.

    His gates unlatched, his edges kind—no need to guard what’s shared in mind.

    Don cuts hard with heel and fist, a higher throne, a tighter grip.

    His towers climb on narrowed ground, each grain a thing to stake and crown.

    They do not speak. They do not meet.

    Their borders press beneath their feet.

    A restless wind that takes no side moves through their work, but passes by.

    Leo mends the broken, and smiles as sand heals the fray.

    Don strikes at every chance, even if it won’t give way.

    And still they build, as children do—one builds for many, one for few.

    -Mandy Ricks

  • Day

    Sometimes the day doesn’t arrive all at once.

    It slips in quietly—through the edge of a curtain, the hum of something ordinary, the pause between thoughts.

    I used to think I had to meet the day with intention, with purpose, with something to prove.

    Now I’m learning to just notice it instead.

    The way light rests on a surface.

    The way a moment passes without asking anything from me.

    Maybe that’s enough.

    Maybe some days aren’t meant to be built or fixed or understood.

    Maybe they’re just meant to be witnessed.

    -Mandy Ricks

  • Catching light

    Sometimes a good day is merely catching light at the right angle.

    -Mandy Ricks

  • Strength

    Real strength comes from quiet consistency more than dramatic gestures.

    -Mandy Ricks

  • Listening counts

    Some take risks without hesitation, others don’t dare.

    It’s cold enough, my legs ache again. Maybe I just can’t stand it today.

    This morning I sang along to American Pie. That counted for something.

    Dancing in the gym sounds fine to me, though I haven’t decided yet.

    When it’s the end, does it still count if the fat lady took Ozempic and isn’t fat anymore?

    Listening counts. Being heard matters.

    -Mandy Ricks

  • Today

    For the first time in decades
    I sit in my house, empty, alone.
    It feels okay.
    No distracting chatter,
    or thoughts.
    Just quiet.
    Who’d have known this peace
    would finally arrive today
    of all days.

    -Mandy Ricks